Thursday, June 19, 2014

Change


Why is change so difficult? There are so many things that I want to change about myself but I struggle to make even the most minor ones. Is it because in order to change, you first need to admit that what you’re currently doing isn’t working? That’s really what you’re doing when you decide to make a change – admitting that you were wrong. It’s as if I don’t trust myself to decide what’s best for me, so when I want to do things differently, I argue with myself and I dig my heels in. I’m not sure if that made sense at all, but that’s how I feel. I continually let myself down and take the path of least resistance.

For example – I didn’t go to class on Monday or last night, simply because I didn’t want to. There was nothing keeping me from going. Some team members have spoken about their positive connection to the kwoon. I don’t have that. For me, it’s a place I go to fail. It’s easier for me to stay away than it is to go and overcome my feelings of failure. I know that I can change how I feel if I change my attitude. But knowing I can do something is different than actually doing it.  

2 comments:

  1. How can you fail? You just started! You've had some obstacles (injuries) get in your way a little bit but there is nothing to fail at, it just is what it is. You do the best you can with the tools that you have and you move forward, that's it! There is nothing left to do but get up and do it! That is what I am doing,no struggle, no doubt, just get it done. What is it? Whatever you want it to be!!!!

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  2. Failure is only a stepping stone to success. Their is a quot I like "I have not failed. I've just found 10000 ways that won't work." - Thomas A. Edison

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