I've been thinking a lot lately about my contribution to the team or the lack thereof. I'm starting to wonder if it's unfair of me to continue as a part of the team when I know from the get go that I can't fully participate due to my work schedule. If there weren't a limited number of spots on the team, maybe it wouldn't be an issue since at that point, any contribution would be worthwhile. But there are times when I feel like I'm taking up a spot that could be taken by someone who could attend all classes and practices. I feel like I take more than I give.
At the end of the day, if everyone on the team could only contribute as much as I have, we'd have no lion dance and no demo. I'm not writing this to garner sympathy or feel sorry for myself; I'm truly trying to figure out the balance of teamwork and selfishness that the pursuit of mastery seems to require.
You can still be a contributing and valuable member of the team even if you're gone for months, it all depends on what you're doing on your own. You've been that member, maybe not in the same ways as others but your blogs and daily postings are tools for the rest of us. If you've been keeping your forms polished and ready to go you can still be part of the demo, depending on your attendance hereon in and the work you put in on your own.
ReplyDeleteI echo Sifu's comment. Despite your work schedule you have been one of the most valuable members of the team. Your insights and personal growth have inspired all of us. You are the proof of the efficacy of the process.
ReplyDeleteAgreed. I love reading your blogs and I think you contribute more than you realize.
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