I haven’t written a journal entry in quite a while. In fact,
I haven’t done much of anything kung fu related in a while. I haven’t been to
class and I’ve missed I Ho Chuan meetings. Over the past week I’ve resumed
doing some training but I’m not doing it with a lot of enthusiasm. I’m hoping
that by just going through the motions I can create some momentum.
Right now I regret joining the Sheep Team. My work schedule
was made even more restrictive recently and if I can get to one class every two
weeks I’ll be doing really well. And when I am home every other weekend, I don’t
want to come to a Friday class; I want to spend that time with my friends or
family or girlfriend. That’s the honest truth. I feel like there isn’t a place in my life for
kung fu right now. It’s not that I don’t see the benefits but there are other
things that are more important to me and I can’t do both, at least not right
now. I don’t anticipate things being like this forever, but for the near
future, this is how it is.
I know that the I Ho Chuan program has a no quitting requirement.
I don’t know what to say about that. I’ll be honest – I don’t know how to balance
my work, personal life, and kung fu. I only have a few days per month to spend
time with the people that are most important to me and I don’t know how to fulfill
my commitment to the team at the same time.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do but I thought I should at
least write a journal entry and let everyone know that I’m still alive.
